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Udah sering bilang ke diri sendiri “don’t expect too much from people, especially people who you care the most”, tapi tetep aja masih kayak gitu. Giliran ekspektasinya nggak kesampaian, jadi harus ngerasain sakit hati berulang-ulang kali lagi.

Lesson learned. From now on, don’t set your expectation too high, when it doesn’t work you fall and it hurts so damn much. That’s the price you have to pay.

Disappointed? Yeah, sure. Because I expected you to at least put in some effort to solve this, but you didn’t. I guess you don’t care anymore, do you? Well, it’s okay if that’s what you really want. I will not disturb you  from now on. I think it’s my time to say “I’m done”. Thank you. :”)

I’m Still Breathing

I leave the gas on 

Walk the alleys in the dark 

Sleep with candles burning 

I leave the door unlocked 

I’m weaving a rope and 

Running all the red lights 

Did I get your attention 

‘Cause I’m sending all the signs that 

The clock is ticking 

And I’ll be giving my two weeks 

Pick your favorite shade of black 

You’d best prepare a speech 

Say something funny 

Say something sweet 

But don’t say that you loved me 

I’m still breathing 

But we’ve been dead for awhile 

This sickness has no cure 

We’re goin down for sure 

Already lost our grip 

Best abandon ship… 

Maybe I was too pale 

Maybe I was too fat 

Maybe you had better 

Better luck in the sack 

No formal education 

I swore way too much 

I swear you didn’t care 

‘Cause we were in love 

So as I write this letter 

And shed my last tear 

Know it’s all for the better 

That we end this here 

Let’s close this chapter 

Say one last prayer 

But don’t say that you loved me 

I’m still breathing 

But we’ve been dead for awhile 

This sickness has no cure 

We’re going down for sure 

Oh we’ve been diagnosed 

So let’s give up the ghost 

Oh God, is it really the last day of 2011? Time sure flies too fast.

So, 2011 has been an “up and down” year, well, mostly an “up” though. I can say that 2011 is definitely my year! :D

Best memories of 2011? Ah, it’s just too many. All I can say is thank you so much for those who successfully brighten up my year, especially YOU. I love you. :)

Xo

I hate the feeling whenever I feel unwanted..

Honestly, I want to spend more time with you. I don’t need the whole day. Even if it’s just fifteen minutes a day, I would more than happy if I could just spend it with you. :(